12-22-22

 10:15 PM

I was really hoping that things would be different this time. They're just not. I keep lying to myself. I keep pretending to be happy, but it's getting more and more difficult. I know she's miserable. I know she'd be happier with someone else. The way she looks at me is different. The way she talks to me is different. I know I'm just a body to keep the bed warm when she gets home from work. I promised myself one marriage. This is it. If it doesn't work, I'm done. I thought this was it.